Chapter Twelve
Sleep sucked. Sleep sucked hard, with great enthusiasm and impressive creativity. I’d always been prone to nightmares and assorted other issues with sleep, for as long as I could remember. I thought that probably made sense, all things considered. It wasn’t every night or anything, though there were times that it felt like it. But they were frequent, and I’d never really found anything that helped. I’d tried a wide array of medications when I was younger, along with every kind of meditation, sleep hygiene pattern, and lifehack I could come up with.
None of it had ever done much. The nightmares still happened, with about the same frequency, severity, and surrealism regardless of what interventions I had tried, until eventually I gave up on preventing them and focused more on just making the surrounding experiences tolerable, adding various sensory comforts. I mostly didn’t have those here, but Raincloud was helpful with that; an actual dog was often better for tactile comfort than a plush one.
But the nightmares themselves hadn’t gotten any better, and this was a bad one. It was dark, and I was lost, and there was something else in the darkness with me. I didn’t know what it was, and I had no idea where it was at all. But it was harrying me, sometimes just a menacing unseen presence, other times suddenly closing in and tearing at me with long, vicious claws.…